Im officially moving to California on Tuesday, July 13th at 5:38 pm. I feel good about this decision :) although I feel bad about leaving my work, it comes at a great time. A ton of people applied to be teachers at my day care so there will no longer be a lack of help. I am at peace with that.
My mom might get a job offer soon and our financial problem that holds us from moving at the moment may be taken care of today. God willing. Praise be to Him no matter what happens today.
I am truly blessed because I am able to go out there. My niece is quite beautiful and I miss her terribly. So, *4* days til I get the privilege to be with her. And help my sis with her pregnancy.

*~California Gurl~*

Im moving to California!!!! Not exactly sure when; not eactly sure how, but im gone.

*Cali Baby<3*

Life is hard, but u just gotta push through it.

My friend Christian came over to my house yesterday and i had an amazing time. i thought my dad was gonna fall in love with him 'cause of christian's fighting experience but apparently my dad doesnt believe him. it is very frustrating to hear that when my dad doesnt even kno christian that well and probably will shut him out before even giving him a chance.
I am praying that my dad'll give him a chance and so christian will be less nervous and actually get to spar with my dad. Christian's too nervous and scared of my dad to actually spar and stuff with him so once he loosens up around him then my dad will get to see christian's fighting techniques =) can't wait for that day to come.

So, i had a mental break down last night...im just so tired. Exercising my Faith muscle is exhausting and it hurts really bad. Im going to California for a week on the 16th. Hoping to get some answers and figure some things out.
-Stina

*Cali Baby<3*

Going to coffee with my mom to discuss my future plans. We want to go to California in a couple weeks for Evah's 2nd Birthday. We Havent decided if we r going to fly or drive because we r moving me out their. I have been praying a lot about this, but I still feel lost. I can't seem to decifere if what my heart and my spirit is saying are the same thing. It feels like if God was to tell me to go that i might dismiss him thinking it was my own wishful desire....I am at a lost. So, hopefully coffee with my mother will help uncomplicated my mind. Blessings!

"Blessed is the man who built his house upon the rock."
-Sting

*Cali Baby<3*

"People Always Leave..."

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid, confused, without a road map.The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days"

Melissa, Jason and baby Evah left for California yesterday. Words can't even come close to describe the sadness/emptiness I am feeling. Tears slowly run down my face every time I think of that beautiful babies face. I heard her tell me "La, you" last night. That is all it took. I decided I'm going to move to California July 1st if my family hasn't already started moving in that direction. My Uncle's lovely gf Cathy, offered me a place to live if I decided to move out their. As soon as she said that I almost cried from the overwhelming Joy i felt! I pray that my family comes out with me and I'm choosing to keep believing God for a miracle.

Have a Blessed Day!
-Stina

Seeing an Old Face

My friend, which i havent seen for in a very long time, is coming to visit for a month. He is a great and talent guy too. His name is Christian and he has been one of my close friends since 6th grade; I am now a junior this year.

He plays the trumpet, is training in boxing, and plays every sport imaginable. He is very sarcastic all the time which i love because he doesnt get too serious with people and is never shy. You can be real with him and just hang out.

My uncle is also coming into town which im over joyed about as well! Hopefully my favorite uncle can meet one of my best friends heh.

RIP Grandpa Standridge

Fred Standridge died May 23rd 2010 at 2:49 pm. I love my grandpa, but I didn't have a strong relationship with him. My mom, sister and I spent a lot of time at the hospital last weekend. A whole bunch of family surrounded his bedside praying for him and singing hyms over him. It was very sweet. He looked like a tiny baby scared to let go. I pray with all my heart that he is in heaven right now.
His memorial service is this saturday...my sister is also moving this monday. It is going to be a tough week, but I'm praying for God's strength to pull me through.

My grandpa just had a heart attack! They say it doesnt look good :( we r heading to Oklahoma City to check on him and the family. We think he is saved i guess it is time to find out for sure. Keep us and him in your prayers.

*Cali Baby<3*

Fresh Start

So, one of my goals in life was to write an inspirational blog. I got discouraged fast and God has shown me that I can do all things through Him and with His help :) Now, I have been going through some trying times: My sister, Melissa, found out she was pregnant last December. I was thrilled! That is until we found out she has a condition called a Kell antibodie which basically means their is a 100% chance that her body will attack the baby. Despite desperate pleas and prayers on January 13th 2010 the baby had no heartbeat and it was removed from her stomach. The day of Melissa's surgery our beloved dog of 12 years died...and if that wasn't bad enough a couple weeks later Melissa finds out they are shutting down her department and she will be losing her job which means I lose my job of watching my niece. I was now without income with bills to pay. Only God could help us get through this mess. I had previously applied for a job at a church daycare; I got approved and everything, but no one from the office called to have me come in. After months of waiting, that is when I decided to watch Evah for money because I was running out of time. After I lost my job watching my niece, God gave me favor and courage to call the daycare. I was working the next day! Praise be to God!! That was March 3rd.

A month later my brother-in-law Jason, Melissa's husband, gets a crazy phone call from his sister. She says "My has had a vision. She had a vision that you were going to molest Evah and she's going to call DHS." Now, keep in mind that these visions are not uncommon for her to have. So far Jason was supposed to have 3 sons (he has a girl) and they and his wife were all supposed to die in a car accident. She also had a vision that Jason's sister was demon possessed and going to die of a tumor. She is crazy. So, Jason calls his mother and pleads with her not to call DHS on them because he would never hurt his child like that...we hoped that she would be smart. Unfortunantley, she wasn't. A day later a DHS worker showed up at Melissa's house. My sister was devistated, but we had no idea at the time that God had already put his hand on the situation and was working miracles.

This is how the day went: Melissa, Evah and I went to lunch with my mom. Afterwards I decided to follow Melissa back home to hang out with her than we were going to go back to my parents house. As soon as we got home I changed Evah's peepy diaper so she was dry and I put on a baby einstein video. After only five minutes of being home, we hear a knock at the door. It was a young lady with a clipboard telling us she got a complaint and that she was from DHS. I could see the pained look on Melissa's face, but she still couldn't see the tiny miracles God had put in place all around her to show she wasn't alone. The lady checked out Evah's body and surprisingly Evah had no bruises, no rashes and of course her diaper was completely dry. Evah is the most clumsiest child so it was a tiny miracle she had no bruises on her. Than another miracle is that I was their to lend support. I was able to distract Evah while the worker talked to Melissa. Melissa explained about Jason's mother and her vision. It didn't take long to realize his mother is psychotic and needs some help. Soon the lady left and that was the end of it.
Jason and Melissa vowed that they would never allow Evah to see her grandparents on his side EVER again. Nevertheless, they were/are still afraid she will come find Evah and take her away.

Now, the Langgings are packing up and moving to California. They leave May 3oth. My mom has had it on her heart and so have i that we want to live by our family out their. We want to be a "light" out in a dark place. We have exhausted all our humanly efforts so now if we move out their it will have to be God's doing. Melissa and Jason found out they were pregnant again! She is 7 weeks and i pray for that baby constantly. There is a doctor at Stanford Medical and she is deals directly with Kell. Melissa has already been approved so when they get out their she can start going to the specialist.

God has great plans for the Cruze's and the Langgings. I am so anxious to find them out...During these last few months it has been very trying. But i remember what Beth Moore said "If God allows the devil to sift you like wheat then there is somthething that needs sifting!" I know in my heart my family is supposed to move to California. We are praying for this summer and so now I'm just waiting on the Miracle. I can't wait to give you guys a praise report. God is good! and He is faithful.

Hey, im going to give u a quick update. Happy New Year everybody! :D 2010 is going to be amazing.
So, for the first 21 days of the New Year our church (Destiny) does a fast. Everybody asks God to reveal to them what He wants them to fast. And we take those 21 days to "pray for the lost and those issues that break our heart." I gave up make-up and Lizzi gave up texting. Poor girl lol But im really excited about this. Its hard but i know it'll be worth it :-)
In other news, i decided to earn money by watching my niece. She's asleep right now. Aww..i start school on monday. Bleh. Working girl by day and school by night.